The beginning to the End





This week is the beginning of the end. The beginning to the end of my crazy month of a million things to do. The beginning to the end of my month of momentous occasions with my children. The beginning to the end of this school year. The beginning to the end of my daughter’s high school days and days living year round at home. And the beginning to the end of my son’s life as a student.
Linda at Teacher Dance has been writing some beautiful poems about saying goodbye to childhood. Some of them touch so close to home and my life right now I have a hard time reading them. But you should. They are poignant and beautiful.
This Saturday my baby turns eighteen. She came home the other day, went to her room and came out in her cap and gown. I blinked and turned away. All I could see was her walking across the stage in her sweet plaid dress and poster board and yarn mortarboard I had made for her kindergarten graduation. It was the beginning to the end.
I finished taking in her prom dress this weekend. She tried it on for her Aunt that was visiting. “Beautiful” was all her Aunt could say. I blinked and turned away. I saw her in her frilly dress up tea party dresses as she offered her guests of stuffed animals and the cat their tea. It was the beginning to the end.
My son came home this weekend and told me his college graduation announcements would be in soon, and he had a house to live in the town for his new job. I blinked and turned away. All I could see was the boy I hugged and said goodbye to in front of his dorm room, as we all wiped away the tears searing our cheeks. It was the beginning to the end.
And so this week I am planning parties, making announcements, gathering addresses, and double checking my lists, because the end is coming, and all I want is the beginning again. 




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23 comments:

  1. You put your feelings into these words and they are so heartfelt. The beginning of the end, yes, but also with these ends come new beginnings. Bittersweet...

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    1. oh yes very bittersweet I am so proud of both of them

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  2. Oh, I teared up reading this. Such happy occasions but also such bittersweet ones. Congratulations on all the wonderful things happening with your children!

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  3. Hold on to those moments Tammy, they do go by so fast. There will be many times to turn away and remember. My baby just turned 30 yesterday. Where did life go?

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    1. oh my gosh, 30. It does go by in a blink. But what wonderful lives they've given us

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  4. That is so sweet! I keep telling my 9 year old daughter to stop growing. I know I'll feel like I just turn around and she will be graduating.

    I hope you are able to treasure every moment.

    Kelly

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  5. You have such a way with words. Does this mean there is hope that my 14 year old will be human again some day?

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    1. What I wouldn't give to have the 14 year old drama back....well maybe :)

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  6. {Hugs} & more {Hugs}!!! Your kiddos are so blessed to have a mommy like you!


    First Grade Delight
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    1. They are blessed to have the people they have in their lives. Hugging you right back!

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  7. Goosebumps . . . love the repetition: I blinked and turned away -- and then the memory. So sweet. Congrats on all the new stages in life. I'm afraid if I blink, my two little ones will be right there. As I wished for in my poem tonight to hold on to them forever . . . enjoy these moments!

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    1. cherish every moment with those babies in a few short years I'll be reading your slices about the next stages for them.

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  8. Your slice is so poignant. I almost had to blink and turn away because you got me. I am nowhere near being in the same place in my life, but your words certainly struck a chord with where I am.

    Also, thank you for your comment on my recent post. I am here and fine. I just needed time. Your support certainly provided a welcome nudge to not take too much time! Thank you, friend.

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    1. I am so glad you are back and all is well. I will be looking forward to reading your wonderful writing again.

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  9. Tammy, thank you for the mention, but you have just written THE poem. It's a prose poem & it is so poignant & filled with meaning & beautifully worded it made me cry. I had just a similar time (a long while ago). My daughter from high school & my son from college. What a month that was, & truly the beginning to the end. You've said it well, & made me sad all over again. But, we wouldn't want it any other way, would we? We want them to grow up & to want to move into their own worlds, right? It's just us darn moms with those very mixed emotions. Thanks for the lovely writing! (If you send this to your local newspaper, I bet they'll publish it!) Send photos too!

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    1. Awww Thank you Linda you always make me feel so good. I am excited to see what wonderful adult lives my children lead, they have been such amazing children. I didn't mean to make you sad :(
      Thank you again,
      Tammy

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  11. You write so beautifully. Your words moved me to tears. It is easy to get caught up in the everyday life "stuff": homework, potty training, house cleaning, meal preparation, etc. wishing for time to move forward. Thank you for reminding me not to wish time away.
    -Megan

    First Grade Magic

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    1. cherish those days! even the potty training lol

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